Risk taking and pulling the trigger

    Risk taking and Pulling the trigger

Let me preface this with a funny but true story:

In my twenties, I took a big risk, I invested all my net worth and even my future income into a software business idea. So essentially, more than I had. It was a huge risk. It took 16 months to get the software idea from scratch to launch-able. We of course blew past deadlines as is typical, and went over-budget. I had no money left though I had some on its way. I was at a pop machine with a friend and business partner (he’s probably reading this and laughing) but I had one single looney left and I told him, this is my last looney and I’m buying a diet coke with it. I went to put into a pop machine. Guess what? The pop machine stole my very last looney to my name. Sounds super cliche but it’s an actual true but hilarious story. The pop machine ate my last looney. The end of the story is positive, the business worked out fantastically and all is well. But I took a leap and risked it all except one looney which a pop machine stole.

I am part of a chat group (Index Trading Group) which I started back many months ago and has now well out grown me. It is now some 250 people. 250 very smart and ambitious people. It’s grown to a point I never believed possible, I rarely contribute on there though my intentions were good but life, busyness and trading gets in the way as it often does. It’s no excuse. I should contribute more. Anyways, this options community is, in my opinion, immensely changing and shaping the future of retail complex option trading with new brilliant research and ideas. It’s got to be at the forefront of market neutral options trading. I often am even somewhat intimidated and in awe of some of the members abilities to focus and create great back-tested ideas and videos (I think most of those reading this will know who they are). Perhaps, it’s why I rarely contribute, it would take a lot of resource to match the quality they put out. I trade huge accounts which takes up time, I have a business to run and I have a family to take care of. Again, no excuse, so do they. But those become excuses I use to put off doing or coming up with ways to contribute (human nature). Anyways…

Today a topic came up about risk taking and trading for a living. A member asked what it would take to quite your job and trade for a living (the dream eh?). I say that almost facetiously, I trade as if it was for a living probably, and it’s got its perks but it’s also very hard money. I think business can be much easier πŸ™‚ The breakdown from one member was very succinct he had listed out exactly what was required to adequately trade for a living and it was in the ball-park of 5MM which assumed you’d only trade 20% of your net worth and that you had several years put away for reserve. I’d pretty much agree with that except there-in lies the rub. If you used that equation to assess risk taking, you’d probably never make it to 5MM. Whatever gets you to 5MM in net, is likely to have broken that equation. Sometimes, you have to break the usual conservative views on risk taking and make that leap. Now, I don’t know if you should do that with trading per say. If you do do that with trading, you better have done your damn homework and have had a long stretch of success!

In life, and if you want to become successful and rich, you just have to jump and pull that trigger. BUT. You have to give it your all and you have to make sure you have back-ups and fail safes built in. Take the risk but if your fucking taking that risk, if something happens, you don’t sleep if it requires attention, you work your ass off making sure the risk you take works or that you have back-ups and ways to mitigate failure. When I started my business, I put every single cent into it, very irresponsible and would have seemed crazy. It worked out well but I think it was more because of insane persistence, fail-safes and tenacity. Once I made the decision to pursue an idea re software, I did everything I could to make it succeed. It took 7 years before it was profitable, and I worked 14 hrs a day 7 days a week to make it work (in my twenties). I pulled the trigger and being smarter now, I doubt I could ever make the same jump again, it’s just so crazy! But back then, once I had pulled the trigger, it was game on, I had back-ups to make it work and I worked 14 hr days 7 days a week making it work. I gave it my all.

The thing is, trading is so psychological and it’s essentially built on irrationality and the medium/arena (market) is largely unpredictable (some TA’s are screaming right now). I don’t think I’d pull a trigger in trading for a living if I were back in my twenties and about to take a risk.

For instance, on the macro level, trading for a living can largely be successful with all of the points I mentioned above (tenacity, hard work, dedication and backups). So Sure, I agree with that, hard work, tenacity and dedication will eventually lead to success as a trader on a macro level. But it’s not the same as a business..it’s a different beast. It’s a psychological Beast. You make decisions that directly and quickly cost or make you money. Dealing with the repercussions of those decisions whilst in a challenging time (down turn in P/L, stressed about $, needing to make more) etc will wear on you. I’ve made borderline adjustments that have cost me a car. Those adjustments bother me and used to affect my life. If you start second guessing yourself…it will start to affect your well-being. I lost many days of my early trading career life dealing with these frustrations and stress. I wasn’t even trading for a living, it was more of a hobby and the amounts weren’t touching my net worth. I can’t even imagine what it’d be like to trade while requiring it for living. I don’t know if I would wish it on my worst enemy. It can’t be easy. I commend the pro full time retail traders. They are a strong breed. Unfortunately, all of these little unexpected psychological issues of trading are human nature and WILL occur. It’s like running bad in poker, some players never recover, it’s a high speed venture with instant requirements for decisions that can cost you dearly. That will wear you out. This is why the best traders have very strict plans that they adhere to religiously. You cannot have on the fly decisions affecting your well-being or your trading psychology. This leads me to the micro level..

If you get into trading for a living and you run bad, this negativity will seep into your trades and it’s not something you can hit the pavement and make work with tenacity since its so much more complex of a battle (I am mostly talking about the internal battle within yourself at challenging times in trading and with the whole basis of the market being irrational and unpredictable). If a trade doesn’t go your way, and it’s getting desperate, there’s not much you can do and it’ll lead to more risk taking. So the whole internal battle you have psychologically, will tend to burn out or cause failure within someone. You can’t just get motivated late at night as a trader, and make something work instantly. So many times, I’ve thought my way through a problem in business, often times that’s not really possible in trading. That in and of itself, will lead to feeling helpless if you experience a bad run. This helplessness will compound. Then comes along second guessing yourself, and generally putting yourself in a compromised mental position.

With a business, usually, you can solve it with smarts, tenacity, dedication and time. You can, not always, but mostly, make it work! You can work hard enough to get lucky. You can do that on a large macro level with trading in general but not on a micro level which can be devastating to the psychology of the trader. I wouldn’t wish trading for a living on my worst enemy if not properly prepared, well bank-rolled and experienced.

Sep 16 – Trade Plan

    SPX OCT Rhino MONSTER

P/L: ~60,000-70,000

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Getting close to profit target of $120,000. Any good 1.5-2% move down will get it at profit target and I’ll close it up. Good trade. If we get lucky and the move happens a bit later on, the profit can be a lot higher. I’ll be pretty quick to lock up profits as we get into next week since we’ll be approaching the 30 DTE level.

    RUT OCT Rhino

P/L: ~22,000

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Getting close to the 37,500 profit target. Same thing applies as with the SPX one. Will start locking in profits and removing.

    SPX NOV Rhino

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Majority of our shorts are at the 2120 strike and we’re up about 7,000. I have to consider rolling the structure down soon. If we go towards 2100 especially.

    RUT NOV Rhino

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Majority of the shorts are at the 1200 area and any move towards 1190 will require me to roll the structure down @ a profit.

Sep 12 – End of Day

A complete reversal. Looks like my lotto’s are out of play…or maybe not. If the market had fell today, I’d have been forced to close them at whatever profit was there as leaving them on with any significant profit would have been gambling. Now, if we actually had a black swan or big 5-6% move, it’d be significantly more as time is ticking on them. Anyways, lots of potential market moving news out there (Hilary, North Korea, etc). A complete waste of time talking bout them but hey, whatever, it’s kinda fun.

Huge Ramble and verbal diarrhea below. Maybe someone can relate to them.

Today’s reversal actually wasn’t too bad on my P/L as I had bought some hedge calls yesterday towards close that paid off reasonably well on the reversal. Sort of internally thought that this would happen re three feds talking today but thought the down move was too harsh for anything significant (I was wrong). Still, Oct/Nov trades are all perfectly positioned. If we can sustain the up move to no more than another 3% we should be sitting very pretty with nice trades that will make the entire year. It’s possible the year ends up at 50% after the Nov and Oct trades, if we have any normal movement from here till mid Oct. If this market screams up to 2240+ then that won’t be possible and we’ll be treading water as we have been.

I am trying to explain to some friends (when they ask how my trading is going since Feb) why the results have been less then spectacular. It think all of us market neutral BF traders agree, it’s a very difficult market for market neutral trading, it really is. I think John Locke is negative 3-4% for the year on his core Bearish Butterfly, M3, V-Condor and Rock trades combined. It’s just a shitty market for these trades. Why specifically for the Rhino? Well, it’s the fact that the market has moved up significantly in every single cycle since February and this strategy really is a mean-reversion based strategy. It expects normal market action with normal volatility where somewhere in the cycle, the market falls into the tent enough to generate the profit targets in the plan. Of course, some months it won’t and you’ll do break-even or slightly negative but other months you’ll get lucky and do 10%. In general, it will do well in each cycle if the cycle moves 10% or less to the downside and 5% or less to the upside. THat’s a huge 45 day range potential for decent results! The crazy thing is, each cycle since Feb has had the latter requirement violated each time. Since February, the trade has not gone back to the tent long enough to generate the profit targets. It’s moved up 34% in 5 or so months. That’s an average of 6% a month or 8-9% a cycle! So, how could any of our trades end anywhere near the tent to where it generates a significant profit? In the Rhino, if the market moves outside of the tent on an up-move, and it sits 3% or more away from the tent without mean-reversion or a move back, the trade is pretty much dead. That’s if you follow it as per the guidelines and original intent of the Rhino. Of course, you could adjust the upside to generate a return via things like RH (Reverse Harvey’ing the upside) but there is trade offs, and to me, when we’ve had significant up moves, we are at risk of quick moves to the downside..and well..I’ve backtested the trade to death and I like it as it is, I don’t want to deal with downside exposure especially now, I mean, it’s kinda already too late πŸ™‚ I believe that over time we mean revert and overtime volatility will come back into the market. If you turn the right wing weak area of the Rhino into a more income generating area, like RTT traders do, it’ll expose you on the downside significantly. I know some of the RTT traders did much better in this environment by reverse harveying but at the same time, these trades will suffer in a larger down move, in fact, I saw several talk about how they were at limits on Friday. If it fell another 3% on Monday, they’d suffer greatly. I prefer to keep managing the Rhino the way I manage it. Eventually it’ll pay off.

I’ve backtested the Rhino to death, and if you go back to 2007, it does extremely well, it’s extremely resilient and it generates an average of 5% a month. It struggles in run-away up markets but little else. No matter how you slice it, if you backtest the last 5-6 months, you’ll get similar crappy results UNLESS you were very liberal on your upside adjustments and didn’t follow the original guidelines (IE RHing the trade). So, when I go through this period with live trades, and I am frustrated with the break-even results (which is only really the last 5 months) and then I backtest and get the same type of results, while having had 70+ months backtested with fantastic results, well, that tells me it’s just the current market type. The trade will work over time but it struggles in times like this..I mean 34% UP in five months, how could I expect any better in the trade result. In fact, its so extreme, shouldn’t I expect to be quite negative during that period?

So the point of all this unedited jabbering, well it’s meant as a cathartic check for myself to remain patient. The next year will not be the same as this year, and if it is, well fuckn’ hell, I’ll just endure it. But I believe that the market goes through cycles and all cycles end. The point is, I have a trade plan, I am going to follow the trade plan and I will continue to trade the plan for years to come. I am confident in the trade. This applies to the Rhino trade, I am actively looking at other trades to compliment.

Here is a few of the trades I have on

1. The Monster SPX Rhinoscreen-shot-2016-09-12-at-7-01-32-pm

This one is quite healthy. It’s got a P/L of about 34k right now. It hit 53k yesterday. If in 20 days we are sitting anywhere between the 2034-2142 area, it’ll be up between 130k-410k If it’s at 2070 area, it’d be up 410k! That would put my account up almost 50% for the year. Not a bad result for one winning trade in 4-5 months. See, it’s about waiting for some mean reversion and for some luck in having the trade end within the tent and this tent is very large..2040-2140 would generate a hefty profit. If the market keeps moving up and we get to the 2230 area or above, yeah I mean, it’ll do slightly positive (15-30k) and that’s it…and that is exactly what’s been happening the last 5 months. You just can’t win too much on relentless up moves.

Here’s my Nov RUT Rhino

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You can see here..we’re about 2% out side the tent and well, we have no real profit potential if we go another 1% out. Of course, I’ll add some call BWBs to help hedge it but it’s likely we’ll just hit break-even if we sit out here and don’t move back in the tent. If you have 4-5 months like that, you have to ask yourself, what are the odds that the market moves up and away from tent and does not enter back into the tent enough to generate the profit target? It’s actually quite rare, it’s just a symptom of an extremely bullish market like this has been and some bad luck with timing. The last 2 down moves worth any salt since Mar lasted 2-3 days and were in such a time where we couldn’t yet close the trade.

Sep 9 – End of Day

Ah what a great day πŸ™‚ It’s nice to be cheering and enjoying a beautiful market fall and even praying for a 3-5% gap down on Monday rather than being stressed out and at adjustment limits with collapsing P/L like I used to be in the modified iron condors days. Obviously, No disrespect or gloating intended. I’ve endured two hard corrections in my life where I wasn’t properly prepared, so I am allowed to say that. So no disrespect or gloating intended re anyone reading this that is long the market. I’ve earned it!

Like I mentioned a few times, I have some Sept Lottos on (specifically 100s of 1050/1100/1140s and 1060/1110/1150s from the Sept campaign that were worthless a few days ago. I had hedged them off the last 2 weeks with call BWBs etc that were all removed. It was cheaper to leave them then to pay commissions closing them. Of course we’re pretty far from 1150 or 1140 but if we got another 7% down before Thursday expiry, they could stand to make a LOT of money. I’ll definitely close most if we get an equivalent -3.5% move on Monday as we had today (it’ll make the Sept profitable) so its probably not actually likely that I’d hit the real big profits as they could, unless we have a mega gap down on Monday. Either way, neat.

All my other trades are doing great. The down move helped a lot. I wish I was a bit quicker removing the remaining upside hedges but it is what it is. I figured we may get back up to 2200 with SPX and 1265 area with RUT before a fall and I didn’t want to expose myself to a runaway up move. Balance. The same day i believed we topped out, I had bought some call BWBs for October. Bad timing but proper risk management. I only use my technical analysis for small things and finer adjustments within my overall parameters.

Ironically, I might actually have to roll down and adjust my Nov trades if we gap down on Monday, which is kinda funny given how much room there was just yesterday. I don’t remember the last time I did downside adjustments, not even Brexit brought me to that. They’ll all be profitable, so it’s welcomed.

Here are my Nov RUT trades which I don’t think I posted. The short strike is at 1200. So as we approach it, I’ll need to roll it down. I may also condorize it or add some call BWBs to help with an upside bounce. I won’t mess about with adjustments if we do gap below 1200 and touch 1190, I’ll be fairly quick to roll down the entire structure. I’ll give it 10 or so points since we’re far away from expiration but not more. If it gapped down the next day and you were at 1190, it’d be on the very slippery left side slope.

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Sep 9 – Trade Plan

A pullback! Right on time. So I guess the 1260 area WAS the big resistance zone where we’d experience a pull back. Got that one right! It was the upper trend line and matched a few other technicals, plus the bollinger bands were historically compressed, made sense we’d experience a pull back here. I just try not to let it affect too many of my decisions as it could go anyway. I still put on my call BWBs for October yesterday since the position got uncomfortable on the upside.

I have a few Sept lotto’s left over and a 8% pull back would be epic.

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C’mon 5% fall by Thursday πŸ™‚

This is the first big 1%+ red day in a long time and it’s so nice to see volatility return. I hope we have a follow up Monday. It’d get our account nice and profitable for the year. There has been no mean reversion or respite from this rally in RUT. It’s made the trades uber boring and almost got me to the point of demotivation. But, volatility always returns.

Here’s my October RUT trade:

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Here’s my October (Monster)

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Sep 8 – Rhino Trade Update

I added 5 x 1230/1280/1310 call BWBs to each of the Oct RUT RHINO trades @ 20.85

I have been toying with adding some 1170/1220/1260 BWBs in @ 4.6 if we have any move up to 1260/1265 area to beef up the sea of death area and for a play on an expected pull back.

Oil is rallying huge today! Nearly 5%. Bonds are taking a hit (TLT down 1.6%).

Oh and I added back 1 futures hedge per trade on the pull back to 1256 TF

Sep 8 – Trade Plan

Yesterday I had closed off some of my futures hedges at my pre-determined level of RUT @ 1260. So far it seems like a decent close. I don’t see us going much above 1260/1265 area as the upper trend line sits right around 1260 (but is rising hence the 1265/1270 possibility).

SPX Oct-D (Rhino)

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No adjustments here.

RUT Oct-D (Rhino)

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I have to address the upside risks here. I am going to look at some adjustments today at 1pm.

SPX Oct-M (Rhino)

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RUT Oct-M (Rhino)

No upside adjustments required.

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I have to address the upside risks here. I am going to look at some adjustments today at 1pm.

SPX Monster Oct-P (Rhino)

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The monster trade. This one is doing well. I have a solid 8% to the downside before any issues and I’ve got that hedged off on other trades until at least Sept 15. No adjustments needed here.

Sep 6 – Rhino Trades

I just joined Bruno’s new service for Rhino trades. He has a fresh interesting outlook on the Rhino trade that interests me. I highly suggest it for anyone that trades Rhinos. I think it’s $900 for the yearly membership today. The Baby rhino looks like a nice addition which I haven’t traded yet. I need to diversify a bit and I’d love some more short term trades as I am not traveling and basically at the computer all day. I’ve started to look at some simple rules based trades to add to my repertoire as well. Just something that’s low stress and management that has a very consistent track record. Specifically the super simple spreads which I just saw a 15 year back test that was fairly impressive. I want to add some tweaks of my own (specifically a STT like addition to it).

Coming towards the end of Aug, I felt like my trading and the methodology was “a solved thing” but as I started getting more time late August and I started watching fellow trader videos/presentations and reading group conversations, I found ideas and data that proved that wrong. I’ve been inspired recently I guess. I mean, the Rhino is a very low maintenance type trade that’s both resilient and very powerful. I didn’t really want to put any serious capital outside of it in other trades and I felt like I hadn’t really needed to explore much more on the Rhino trade in specific. Find something that works and is resilient and leave it alone type thinking. But I think there may be interesting things that we can take away from the new Road Trip Trades (RTT) while adding Space trip Trades (STT) in for downside crash protection. The Rhino has a serious problem with runaway markets to the upside and addressing that weakness would be nice while not over exposing the down side. I don’t know if the STT would help in that as it’s meant for Crash protection, but I want to explore it. I also am not loving the calendar adjustments on the upside and have been mostly using call BWBs.

I’ve had a mostly unemotional hands off approach to trading it since the summer. I follow the trade plan and mitigate risk as needed. I haven’t profited much since the meteoric rise from the February lows since it was a 33 % or so move. The way I trade the rhino doesn’t allow for profit in a runaway market like that. I mean, how could I expect to profit much when each cycle had a 5-7% up move. It’s just not possible for me to make money in my trade plan for the rhino if the market has 7% up moves in each cycle of the trade or if it rises 33% in 5 months πŸ™‚ All that said, I am looking to add some strategies for my upside and I’ve started to add some mechanical strategies I used to do.

Here’s my September trade that’s basically closed down pending any significant down move before expiry, it’ll be closed at a loss. If I get a 5% down move ANY time before Sep 20, it’d be a profitable month πŸ™‚ If I get lucky and have a 10% move, I’ll be up massive amounts.

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Here’s my October trade

It’s up a tiny bit and I think it’s in a good position for the cycle. My upside risk is quite low and any decent down move will get it right in the tent (hopefully later in the cycle so the T+0 builds in the tent).

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Finally my SPX October trade

This one is my biggest trade with the most potential. If we get any 4-5% move in the next 30 days, It stands to make several hundred k. The upside risk is low but I’ll have issues if it sits between 2170 and 2200 and will have to address that sag.

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Apr 29 – Rhino M3 Trade Update

Trade updates below. The P/L might differ a bit through the day. I’ll check again in the next half hour or OV updates. Definite recovery with the down move. I am looking into Jul expiration right now since the vol is a bit higher and I’d like to get some trades on in that expiration. I am looking for 2.9-2.95 as a price.

June Rhino M3 (P)
# of Units: 30
Planned Capital: 750,000
Current P/L : -4,767
Max Draw Down: P/L: -18,000
Current P/L(%): -0.6%

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June Rhino M3 (D)
# of Units: 16
Planned Capital: 400,000
Current P/L: -1,197
Yesterdays P/L: -11,000
Current P/L(%): -0.3%

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June Rhino M3 (M)
# of Units: 25
Planned Capital: 625,000
Current P/L: -2,566
Yesterday’s P/L: -16,800
Current P/L(%): -0.4%

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Apr 19 – EOD June RHINO M3 Trade

Today started off with a move to about 1146 which was where I thought we’d have some sort of retracement or a pause. It quickly fell to about 1136 where I put on some upside adjustments to get the deltas in line. I’ll do more adjusting if we get into the 1120s and pause. I do think we’ll have a larger retracement eventually, SPX is just below the very important psychological 2100 resistance and that tells us that buyers are running out as it has not pushed above and held (lots of buying last 2 months, so those people have lost their vote, they’ve already bought). I can’t see upside risk being less than downside risk. So I continue to keep the trades right at the edge of the adjustment points. Any 20-30 point drop will give the trades a profitable P/L. As we get dips, I’ll keep getting those deltas more and more balanced as I did today. Frustrating time for these trades but they’re working as expected. I have one hindsight regret, I think I started them with too much negative delta bias which I thought, at the time, was a smarter play given the run up to 1100 in such a short time. If I could go back, I’d probably have added 2 call calendars per tranche to keep it more neutral.

June Rhino M3 (P)
# of Units: 30
Planned Capital: 750,000
Current P/L: -15,335
Current P/L(%): -2%
Loss @ 1145: -17,200

–>Todays Trade: Added 10 1120/1170/1200 call BWBs @ 18.2 and 15 1170 call calendars @ 6.23

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June Rhino M3 (D)
# of Units: 16
Planned Capital: 400,000
Current P/L: -9,233
Current P/L(%): -2.4%
Loss @ 1145: -11,500

–>Todays Trade: Added 4 1120/1170/1200 call BWBs @ 18.22 and 12 1170 call calendars @ 6.15

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June Rhino M3 (M)
# of Units: 25
Planned Capital: 625,000
Current P/L: -14,516
Current P/L(%): -2.24%

–>Todays Trade: Added 7 1120/1170/1200 call BWBs @ 18.2 and 15 1170 call calendars @ 6.22

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